third year

It's been about a month since I last posted something here and I have to admit that it would take more than a month for me to explain what has been going on. And I guess I have always tried to explain everything here every time I post, but now, I don't think I would. I'll write whatever comes to my mind.

Ouch. A black ant just bit me. Seriously, I have no idea how a black ant made its way to my wrist. Anyway, its gone now so it doesn't matter and there are a lot more painful things than bites from black ants like the time passing by so quickly. You're enjoying life so much that, man, it's all over before you know it. And you only realize that something's gone when it's too late.

And that's not the most painful thing.

The thing is, what hurts the most is that while you've just realized that "Whoa, time flies quickly these days...", time is still moving and there's no time to lose to think about what had happened. No time to think life over and to move on.

But you don't exactly move on because you keep thinking about what happened and you don't want it to be over anyway.

So, you're confused.
And you have no idea what to do next.
And you're stranded in the middle of a grayish blur, between white and black, between past and present and future.

Ugh, this is complicated, and I will stop trying to explain the reason why my post is so...so...what's the word for it?

Sentimental?
Depressing?

Shut up Cesca, and move on with life. There are a lot of good things in store for you out there, and you're the only one who can discover it. If you'de just move on.

I would really like to replace my blog now because the "Emily-gothic" theme is getting kinda weary but I've got no time to do so. I would think it a waste of time to be making a layout for this blog (because I want my new blog to be made by me.) especially when there are a lot more important things to do.

What else?

Oh, third year. During the first few weeks I felt lost in all the swirling masses of new faces and old ones. But one afternoon, I was walking with Januel from the staffroom, and suddenly I felt that I was right back home. And I have no idea how that happened. And at that moment I thought that I was going to enjoy junior year the same as I loved second year. Erase the fact that third year is usually synonymous to hell year, I think I like it very much, thank you!

And everything's the same as it has always been, only difference is, people got a little bit more gc and serious. Kidding.

Actually, a lot of things have changed but sometimes, whether it's good or bad, you just have to learn to live with it. I, for instance, have gotten a bit more kikay and well, I must say that a part of me looks at the world differently compared to how I viewed it before but I can't explain that part so oh well. Let others figure it out.

And here are some very random thoughts.

I love world history.

I love English lit though I must admit that the Beowulf reporting has taken too much time.

I love studying Chemistry but I prefer if I study alone.

Journalism is still my elective and I think it is safe to say that it will always be, though I almost changed my mind and switched to Speech and Drama. But I realized that I can live a whole year without acting but I can't live a week without writing something so I stayed in journ, and anyway, Journ's much more challenging and exciting than Speech and Drama. That's just my opinion though.

Physics is boring and I think it will always be and I've always wondered why it has been classified as a Science subject not as a Math one when it's full of Math anyway. And I think studying functions is much more interesting than studying vectors. I cannot believe I'm studying this subject. Oh. Let me rephrase that. I cannot believe that I'm actually forcing myself to study Physics. It's too soporific to even be classified as "bearable".

Ah, Statistics. Another Math subject that I think is only studied for research and the sake of research only, which I wouldn't be doing after I graduate anyway.

And Research. Which I am anticipating because of the off-campus trips and well, it's more worth studying than Physics. Even if I'm not going to end up as a researcher.

MAPEH. Ms. Hermano is good, but I've always underappreciated the importance of the subject except perhaps, Art, I guess.

Filipino...should have been wonderful, but...

And the last subject should have been vacant but it became Math which is better than Physics but is Math nonetheless.

So there. That would be all for now. Bye.

tinatamad ako mag-post

pasukan na.
at marami
dapat akong
i-shashare
na kwento sa
inyo kayalang
tinatamad
akong mag-post
kaya di muna
ako magkwkwento
pero okay
naman ang
pasukan. medyo
nakakalungkot
nga lang dahil
may summer
hangover pa ako
at miss ko na
ang second year
at medyo
dinudugo lang
naman ako
sa mga subjects
tulad ng
physics
chemistry
statistics
research
at syempre
trigonometry...
mag-aaral na
talaga ako ngayon,
no choice eh...
yun lang naman.
sige na...
next time ko
na lang kwkwento
ang nangyari
at nangyayari
sa kisay...
bbye.
^_*

P.S. buhay pa naman ako.

pasukan na bukas.

at...

1. nalinis ko na ang desk ko at lahat-lahat.
2. i'm in the process of downloading the last back-to-school songs for my iPod.
3. nabili ko na lahat ng kailangan kong food sa grocery kanina.
4. nabusog ako kanina kasi di pa kumain ng breakfast at sa sm supermarket kami lumamon ni ate judith at louise.
5. baka hindi na ako mag-dinner.
6. nakabili na ako ng matinong medyas.
7. nakabili na ako ng for-all-subjects notebook.
8. alam ko na ang dadalin kong bag bukas.
9. aayusin ko na ang bag ko mamayang alas-siyete.
10. excited na ako na naiinis na nalilito na...ah...bahala na.
11. kitakits sa lahat ng mga scientians bukas lalong-lalo na sa mga classmates ko at busmates.
12. goodluck sa lahat, lalo na sa juniors na...err...juniors na at sa seniors na malapit ng mag-take ng kung ano-anong college entrance exams. goodluck!
13. bye?
14. tama, bye na.
15. ^_^

the must-do and must-have post (aka the back-to-school post)

Summer will be officially over in three days. This is another english post I guess, but no matter. My thoughts are in english today. I shoul've posted this three hours ago but we ran out of internet card. So, I texted Ma and asked for another username/password and I went upstairs to read this new book we bought on Ma's birthday (Feeling Sorry For Celia). Fifteen minutes later, I stopped reading and I fell asleep and it must be because I was in bed and the airconditioner was turned on (a perfect place to fall asleep).

Bottomline is, I only received the text two hours later when I woke up and since it was lunch time, I had to eat first (and watch anime).

The past two days had been a blast. Two days ago was Ma's birthday and yesterday was Louise's orientation on her day-care and me, Aya, and Joana's gimmick at Galle.

Two days ago, we went two the Hyatt hotel in Manila for lunch (Me, Pa, and Ma) then Ma and me went to Greenbelt-Glorietta. Pa was going to watch Sitti (watch her on MTV, I've seen her videos there.) with us later that night.

Meanwhile, we watched a movie (Failure to Launch, it was nice.) and had a foot massage at Piandre, (and bought a book) then we went to the bar (minors weren't allowed but I guess I didn't look like one) and watched Sitti (she was ok, but she's not really my type of music). But before that, Ma and I talked and it was kind of the first time that we really talked and I mean, really really talked.

Yesterday, after Louise's orientation, I went to Galle and Joana and Aya and I watched a flick (X-Men: The Last Stand), went to different shops and drank at Starbucks. We are planning to have a movie marathon sometime and an all-shoppong day too.

But that was just a peek into what happened. Much more has happened during the past two days if feelings and such are involved. But anyway, this is officially my back-to-school post so why don't I type all the back-to-school stuff here now?

must-do's

1. clean and organize all my stuff
2. buy school things
3. organize my pc files
4. download all the pics in Multiply.
5. write articles
6. fix my cds
7. clean my iPod (both in and out)


must-have's

1. a shirt or two from Lolita.
2. brand-new socks
3. shoes from Hush Puppies
4. pins
5. school stuff
6. dvds
7. Pride and Prejudice mini tv series starring Colin Firth and Jennifer Ehle
8. Witch Hunter Robin!
9. a laptop
10. him. no. I'm kidding. I'm not thinking right again.

so anyway, that's all for now. might post something later.

last day of may...and ma's birthday

so, I'm just updating with the latest...although I still can't breathe whenever---Ok. I'll shut up about that now.

Birthday ni ma! Pero that also means aalis na kami mamaya-maya, actually hinihintay ko na lang sya bumaba kasi nauna akong maligo sa kanya...so anyway, I'll enumerate this...not in any order...just random thoughts.

1. I've done a bit of growing up this summer.
2. For the first time since I was about 10 (I'm 15 going on 16 this November), I gave ma a birthday present: a compilation of her favorite songs. I also gave ma and pa roses last February 14.
3. I am going to experiment more stuff in photoshop. I made the cover of the cd there. Sayang, wala na kaming colored ink.
4. I have updated my iPod mini and from 500+ songs it dwindled to 329...I removed all the songs I don't like...and added a few others that I love.
5. I REALLY am going to focus more this school year.
6. I'm a bit nervous about junior year.
7. Everybody's changed a bit.
8. Teofilo has a girlfriend. I'm happy for you, Teops. ^_^
9. I had my haircut last Sunday. I still have bangs but I think I look totally different. I should probably update me long-hair avatar in Yahoo! Messenger.
10. Avril commented that I looked like a doll when we had our journ meeting last monday. I have no idea if she was complimenting me or not.
11. Since May 17 I have been an active Teentalker (I've been a member since December 2005 and that was like the third time I joined.)...I have 100+ posts now and have posted five stories in Creative Corner. If you want to read it...err...go there. I'm too lazy today to get the links.
12. I have to fix my things soon. Though I've practiced cleaning the master's bedroom already. But I'm still too lazy to prepare for school.
13. I need new stuff.
14. I think I have to go now.
15. Bye.

query

wahahaha! and the quizzes begin: www.blogthings.com


Your Band Name is:
The Pieces of Androids

What's your power color?
Your Power Color Is Indigo
At Your Highest: You are on a fast track to success - and others believe in you. At Your Lowest: You require a lot of attention and praise. In Love: You see people as how you want them to be, not as how they are. How You're Attractive: You're dramatic flair makes others see you as mysterious and romantic. Your Eternal Question: "Does This Work Into My Future Plans?"

What type of writer should you be?
You Should Be a Romance Novelist
You see the world as it should be, and this goes double for all matters of the heart.You can find the romance in any situation, and you would make a talented romance story writer...And while you may be a traditional romantic, you're just as likely to be drawn to quirky or dark love stories.As long as it deals with infatuation, heartbreak, and soulmates - you could write it.

What color heart do you have?
Your Heart Is Blue
Love is a doing word for you. You know it's love when you treat each other well.You are a giving lover, but you don't give too much. You expect something in return. Your flirting style: Friendly Your lucky first date: Lunch at an outdoor cafe Your dream lover: Is both generous and selfish What you bring to relationships: Loyalty

What color should your eyes be?
Your Eyes Should Be Violet
Your eyes reflect: Mystery and allure What's hidden behind your eyes: A quiet passion

What do people think of your face?
What Your Face Says
At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced. Overall, your true self is reserved and logical. With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react. In love, you seem mysterious and interesting. In stressful situations, you seem cheerful and optimistic.

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?
Your Birth Month is November
Tolerant and inspirational, you are wise beyond your years.You are universally sympathetic and a great humanitarian. Your soul reflects: Compassion, friendship, and secret love Your gemstone: Citrine Your flower: Chrysanthemum Your colors: Dark blue, red, and yellow

What is your ideal career?
Your Career Type: Artistic
You are expressive, original, and independent.Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art. You would make an excellent: Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer Dancer - DJ - Graphic DesignerIllustrator - Musician - Sculptor The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

yan na muna for now. ahehe...

anak ng tinapay!

waaaaah! grabe talaga! pasaway kasi na braces toh'. kapag di ko raw pinatangal ung wisdom tooth (yung ngipin sa dulo na tumutubo in your late teens---pera anak ng tinapay! 15 pa lang ako, at ang aga tumubo! hmph!), masisira daw yung improvement sa braces ko. so uulit ako uli. sayang.

so anyway, nanginginig talaga ako kahapon:

reenactment (wahahahahaha!):
setting: isang dentist clinic sa may don antonio drive, katapat ng ever)

dr. ong: o, ikaw na.
ako: (sa isip ko) oh my goodness! lugaw lang ang kakainin ko mamaya!!! noooooo!!!

(may isang assistant na pina-upo ako doon sa dentist chair thing-ano ba tawag dun? tapos nilagyan ng lip balm yung labi ko tsaka betadine yung paligid ng labi ko. eeeeeew! doon pa lang diring-diri na ko! imagine...betadine sa may labi mo...although hindi ako sure kung betadine ngayon...pero betadine lang naman ang ganun ang kulay at amoy eh so betadine nga ata.)
dumating si dr. ong...

dr. ong: open.
ako: (sa isip ko) oh shoot! simula na ba??? ay teka, kakain muna ako ng hash brown...tapos dun tayo mag-start! waaaah! ano tong---

(ininjectionan ako ng ilang beses...anesthesia.)

ako: (sa mga susunod na dialogue hindi ko na sasabihing "sa isip ko" kasi obvious naman na sa isip ko lang yung sasabihin ko---I mean, paano ka magsasalita kung may apat na silver thingies sa mouth mo?) ouch...that hurts...aray...hmmm...parang nagiging numb na ang feeling...repeat 4x.

dr. ong: naging numb na?

ako: (nag-gesture na hindi pa...pero actually...parang numb na...kayalang pano kung hindi pa pala yun yun? edi kapag---wait. explain ko muna yung gagawin sa akin. tumutubo na nga kasi yung isa kong wisdom tooth pero wala pa sya sa labas...meaning kukuhain nila sa loob ng gums ung ngipin ko...meaning hindi siya yung usual na bunot at surgery siya talaga. tatahiin yung part na yun pagkatapos...eh di ba dun pa lang sa sinabi ko, aayaw ka na? pero wala akong magagawa, ang mahal ng braces at masasayang lang yun dahil sa wisdom tooth na iyon---anak ng tinapay! bakit ba tinawag na wisdom tooth??? anyway...edi kapag gumawa ng incision si doc, at hindi pa pala umeepekto ung anesthesia...edi sobrang sakit nun??? kaya sabi ko hindi pa.

nilinis muna niya ang ngipin ko...pero lalo lang akong kinabahan)

after a few minutes...

dr. ong: ok, ready na ha...
ako: shoot...omg! anak ng tinapay! anak ng tipaklong! hindi pa! wait lang (puso ko: dug-dug-dug...parang sinentensyahan ng death penalty ang ngipin ko!)

kumuha na ng something na silver thing si dr. ong at although wala akong nararamdaman (dapat lang! sobrang uncomfy ko na nga sa anesthesia hindi pa uubra???) alam kong i-nincision na yung gums ko sa likod dahil yung nurse na katabi niya kumuha ng straw-like tube at hinigop ng tube...yung...gasp!...blood.

and the rest...ayoko na ikwento kasi...ayoko na matandaan...at ngayon may tahi na ang gums ko.

anak ng tinapay!

anyway, tapos na ang theater...will write an article about it na i-popost ko rin dito.
hinahanap nga lang ng lola ko yung isa pa niyang kurtina. naiwan kasi dun sa backstage...makukuha ko rin yun.

nakapag-intern na ako sa pink mag...tapos may mga susunod pa but I will write about it din kaya di ko na muna i-eelaborate.

tapos...ano pa ba?

brigada eskwela- di ko kelangan maglinis, journ work kasi.
more articles- will submit that asap.
lsc- 8 hours na lang (4 sa physics, 4 sa trigo)...yey!
enrollment- darwin pa rin! kaklase ko sina nikka, bemba, monica, ange, pammy, rem, ej, kru, joren, gustav, jason, marion...at sino pa ba??? nasabi ko na nga ba toh??

pero anyway! darwin pa rin! excited na ako next year dahil...basta!

oo nga pala...isang question na matagal ko ng gustong tanungin...nasagot na...sabi sa encarta dictionary: ang difference ng enrol at enroll...(past en·rolled, past participle en·rolled, present participle en·roll·ing, 3rd person present singular en·rolls) or en·rol [in rṓl, en rṓl] (past en·rolled, past participle en·rolled, present participle en·roll·ing, 3rd person present singular en·rols)
tapos sa encarta thesaurus:

enrol- book in
(v)
check in, register, sign in, enlist, enrol
antonym: leave

enroll- enroll
(v)
register, sign up, put your name down, join, join up, sign on

ayan. medyo nagiging malinaw na. ^_^